This song came into my head today and it remind me of someone, just thought about putting it here as a testament of something that was meant to be but it didn't happen.
Eu sei que vou te amar
Por toda a minha vida eu vou te amar
Em cada despedida eu vou te amar
Desesperadamente, eu sei que vou te amar
E cada verso meu será
Prá te dizer que eu sei que vou te amar
Por toda minha vida
Eu sei que vou chorar
A cada ausência tua eu vou chorar
Mas cada volta tua há de apagar
O que esta ausência tua me causou
Eu sei que vou sofrer a eterna desventura de viver
A espera de viver ao lado teu
Por toda a minha vida
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Some quotes from new songs I've been listenning to
"No one can take you where you alone must go/ There's no telling what you will find there"
"Can’t reach that far/ Cause it’s impossible/ Can’t rise above this place/ Won’t change enough, so I pray/ Breaking down the walls to the impossible"
"So hard to see myself without him/ I felt a piece of my heart break/ But when you're standing at a crossroad/ There's a choice you gotta make."
"I guess it's gonna have to hurt/ I guess I'm gonna have to cry/ And let go of some things I've loved/ To get to the other side/ I guess it's gonna bring me down/ Like falling when you try to fly/ It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life/ Starts with goodbye."
"This is the last straw/ this isn't life here/ I'm packing my dreams up, and leaving my nightmares"
"I'll send you a postcard, saying I'm alright/ On the back, that I'm in love with life"
"Clear the sky/ I start to breath again well been too high/ Let you through to who I am inside/ Every layer till you get underneath my skin/ Let you in, let you in"
"Where were my senses?/ I left them all behind/ Why did I turn away?"
"I guess that's why they call it the blues/ Time on my hands would be time spent with you."
"Don't wish it away/Don't look at it like it's forever."
"I simply love you/ More than I love life itself."
"I don't understand what happened between you and me but/ You will probably end up with someone half as good as me."
"You know that I love you so/ I love you enough to let you go."
"There’s no moving on/ So I’m already gone."
"You give and takin' everything I dreamed about/ It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go."
"All I ever wanted/ Was a simple way to get over you."
"I'd rather walk alone/ Don't wanna chase you around/ Everyday, everyday, every minute."
"Who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told."
"Whenever I see you/ I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue."
"Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart/ I'll pretend I'm okay with it all/ Act like there's nothing wrong"
"The story was supposed to last/ You were never supposed to be/ Just somebody in the past/ Somebody I used to see."
"After all the noise I never heard our last goodbye/ It was silent as a butterfly."
"I'm going my own way/My faith has lost its strength again"
"She had a world of chances/ Chances you were burning through."
"You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me/ You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay"
"Is this the end of the moment or just a beautiful unfolding of a love that will never be? Or maybe be?"
"I wonder If maybe, maybe I could be all you ever dreamed? Cause you are beautiful inside, so lovely and I can't see why I'd do anything without you."
"Is this a natural feeling or is it just me bleeding all my thoughts and dreams in hope that you will be with me?"
"Just a look from you is a saving grace/ All the questions start to fade away/ Cause the answer's written on your face/ It's obvious to me/ It's obvious to me."
"Are you still that boy in the photograph with me right there by your side?/ Was it just a dream I used to have or is it still, still alive?"
"The city comes alive/ As soon as you walk through the door."
"Slow down/ Make it last/ I'm having the time of my life/ And take a photograph/ I don't want to leave this behind/ What seems so out of reach/ We're holding it right in our hands/ Let's give up everything/ Let's jump in and never look back"
"This is all I ever wanted/ But life got in my way/ You're all I ever wanted/ I didn't see how it could change/ I didn't know that something was missing until today"
"I think about you, and all the times that we shared/ And oh what a wonderful pair we made."
"I think about love, and oh what a beautiful song/ And oh how it need to be sung here sing it so loud all the world can hear"
"I think about time, a luxury so hard to find/ And I just can't figure out why I wasted it all here without you/ But I'll be fine, and don't you worry/ Cause I'll be fine, see I'm in a hurry to be gone away awhile, tell me all the things that I'll be missing here in this old life"
"Can’t reach that far/ Cause it’s impossible/ Can’t rise above this place/ Won’t change enough, so I pray/ Breaking down the walls to the impossible"
"So hard to see myself without him/ I felt a piece of my heart break/ But when you're standing at a crossroad/ There's a choice you gotta make."
"I guess it's gonna have to hurt/ I guess I'm gonna have to cry/ And let go of some things I've loved/ To get to the other side/ I guess it's gonna bring me down/ Like falling when you try to fly/ It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life/ Starts with goodbye."
"This is the last straw/ this isn't life here/ I'm packing my dreams up, and leaving my nightmares"
"I'll send you a postcard, saying I'm alright/ On the back, that I'm in love with life"
"Clear the sky/ I start to breath again well been too high/ Let you through to who I am inside/ Every layer till you get underneath my skin/ Let you in, let you in"
"Where were my senses?/ I left them all behind/ Why did I turn away?"
"I guess that's why they call it the blues/ Time on my hands would be time spent with you."
"Don't wish it away/Don't look at it like it's forever."
"I simply love you/ More than I love life itself."
"I don't understand what happened between you and me but/ You will probably end up with someone half as good as me."
"You know that I love you so/ I love you enough to let you go."
"There’s no moving on/ So I’m already gone."
"You give and takin' everything I dreamed about/ It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go."
"All I ever wanted/ Was a simple way to get over you."
"I'd rather walk alone/ Don't wanna chase you around/ Everyday, everyday, every minute."
"Who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told."
"Whenever I see you/ I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue."
"Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart/ I'll pretend I'm okay with it all/ Act like there's nothing wrong"
"The story was supposed to last/ You were never supposed to be/ Just somebody in the past/ Somebody I used to see."
"After all the noise I never heard our last goodbye/ It was silent as a butterfly."
"I'm going my own way/My faith has lost its strength again"
"She had a world of chances/ Chances you were burning through."
"You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me/ You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay"
"Is this the end of the moment or just a beautiful unfolding of a love that will never be? Or maybe be?"
"I wonder If maybe, maybe I could be all you ever dreamed? Cause you are beautiful inside, so lovely and I can't see why I'd do anything without you."
"Is this a natural feeling or is it just me bleeding all my thoughts and dreams in hope that you will be with me?"
"Just a look from you is a saving grace/ All the questions start to fade away/ Cause the answer's written on your face/ It's obvious to me/ It's obvious to me."
"Are you still that boy in the photograph with me right there by your side?/ Was it just a dream I used to have or is it still, still alive?"
"The city comes alive/ As soon as you walk through the door."
"Slow down/ Make it last/ I'm having the time of my life/ And take a photograph/ I don't want to leave this behind/ What seems so out of reach/ We're holding it right in our hands/ Let's give up everything/ Let's jump in and never look back"
"This is all I ever wanted/ But life got in my way/ You're all I ever wanted/ I didn't see how it could change/ I didn't know that something was missing until today"
"I think about you, and all the times that we shared/ And oh what a wonderful pair we made."
"I think about love, and oh what a beautiful song/ And oh how it need to be sung here sing it so loud all the world can hear"
"I think about time, a luxury so hard to find/ And I just can't figure out why I wasted it all here without you/ But I'll be fine, and don't you worry/ Cause I'll be fine, see I'm in a hurry to be gone away awhile, tell me all the things that I'll be missing here in this old life"
Thursday, July 30, 2009
The Art of Letting Go
I’ve been practicing the art of letting go.
Trying to be free from the feeling of loving you.
But then I see your smile and the questions I locked inside my head start coming to the surface:
“Why am I hear far from you?”
“How could you let me go?”
And I wonder if me staying always at a safe step back prevented us from finally be?
Now see, where’s the so called art of letting go?
Where is the peace I was waiting for?
Now I just lay down and try to convince myself I was caught off guard
“It won’t happen again”
“I will not pull you back to my thoughts”
“Before I was doing just fine.”
The art of letting go
The days that it works seems so glorious and noble
“Just let go and destiny will fulfill itself.”
But what if I have a shitty destiny after all?
No, please just stop wondering.
Useless!
That’s when the bad days take place.
You try to focus and continue your own path.
Work on some kind of rehab for the soul.
Do not look at his pictures or
Think about his face,
His voice
And don’t even get me started on the time you spent perfectly fitted in his arms.
This is the art of letting go
Ironic… while you can not think of him
You also have to try to pull him off from under your skin.
“How and when did he get there anyway?”
Doesn’t matter!
Just let him be gently washed away from you on the good days.
On the bad days… gather your strength to nail him off in scrutiating pain because that’s what you have to do.
Just because.
As you can see today was a bad day practicing
The Art of Letting Go.
Trying to be free from the feeling of loving you.
But then I see your smile and the questions I locked inside my head start coming to the surface:
“Why am I hear far from you?”
“How could you let me go?”
And I wonder if me staying always at a safe step back prevented us from finally be?
Now see, where’s the so called art of letting go?
Where is the peace I was waiting for?
Now I just lay down and try to convince myself I was caught off guard
“It won’t happen again”
“I will not pull you back to my thoughts”
“Before I was doing just fine.”
The art of letting go
The days that it works seems so glorious and noble
“Just let go and destiny will fulfill itself.”
But what if I have a shitty destiny after all?
No, please just stop wondering.
Useless!
That’s when the bad days take place.
You try to focus and continue your own path.
Work on some kind of rehab for the soul.
Do not look at his pictures or
Think about his face,
His voice
And don’t even get me started on the time you spent perfectly fitted in his arms.
This is the art of letting go
Ironic… while you can not think of him
You also have to try to pull him off from under your skin.
“How and when did he get there anyway?”
Doesn’t matter!
Just let him be gently washed away from you on the good days.
On the bad days… gather your strength to nail him off in scrutiating pain because that’s what you have to do.
Just because.
As you can see today was a bad day practicing
The Art of Letting Go.
Monday, March 23, 2009
In Pieces
"Here I go again on my own
Going down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
'Cause I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams"
"Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me"
"You're close enough to see that
You're...the other side of the world to me"
"Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air"
"Lock the door and close the window
I just wanna sleep
Until the day
Inside my future
When I'll be on my feet"
"Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
When the damage is already done
I don't wanna be somewhere
Where you can watch me
As I bleed
Just leave me here in pieces
In pieces"
Going down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
'Cause I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams"
"Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me"
"You're close enough to see that
You're...the other side of the world to me"
"Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air"
"Lock the door and close the window
I just wanna sleep
Until the day
Inside my future
When I'll be on my feet"
"Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
When the damage is already done
I don't wanna be somewhere
Where you can watch me
As I bleed
Just leave me here in pieces
In pieces"
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
What now??? (Some quotes about my feelings right now)
If you pay attention it's ironic how I found all these quotes on the same website without even look for any specific authors.
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up."
— Neil Gaiman
"I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I know that, in three months’ time, I’ll be far away and he’ll be just a memory, but I couldn’t stand living without love any longer; I had reached my limit…
Generally speaking, these meetings occur when we reach a limit, when we need to die and be reborn emotionally. These meeting are waiting for us, but more often than not, we avoid them happening. If we are desperate, though, if we have nothing to lose, or if we are full of enthusiasm for life, then the unknown reveals itself, and our universe changes directions."
— Paulo Coelho (Eleven Minutes: A Novel)
"If I could but know his heart, everything would become easy."
— Jane Austen (Sense and Sensibility)
"Do you really have any idea how important you are to me! Any concept at all of how much I love you?"
— Stephenie Meyer (Eclipse)
"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment."
— Sarah Dessen (The Truth About Forever)
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
— Maya Angelou
"If you wanna know the truth, you make or break my day. If you wanna know the truth, I wouldn't have it any other way."
— David Cook
"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up."
— Neil Gaiman
"I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I know that, in three months’ time, I’ll be far away and he’ll be just a memory, but I couldn’t stand living without love any longer; I had reached my limit…
Generally speaking, these meetings occur when we reach a limit, when we need to die and be reborn emotionally. These meeting are waiting for us, but more often than not, we avoid them happening. If we are desperate, though, if we have nothing to lose, or if we are full of enthusiasm for life, then the unknown reveals itself, and our universe changes directions."
— Paulo Coelho (Eleven Minutes: A Novel)
"If I could but know his heart, everything would become easy."
— Jane Austen (Sense and Sensibility)
"Do you really have any idea how important you are to me! Any concept at all of how much I love you?"
— Stephenie Meyer (Eclipse)
"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment."
— Sarah Dessen (The Truth About Forever)
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
— Maya Angelou
"If you wanna know the truth, you make or break my day. If you wanna know the truth, I wouldn't have it any other way."
— David Cook
"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Abou the one I used to love
It's four in the afternoon
I'm on a flight leaving L.A.
Trying to think about my life
My youth scattered along the highway
Hotel rooms and headlines
I've made a living with a song
Just a guitar as my companion
Wanting desperately to belong
Fame is filled with spoiled children
They grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality
So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind wanting
What´s been missing in my life
I'm embarassed to say the rest is a rock and roll cliche
I hit the bottom when I reached the top
I never knew it was you who was breaking my heart
I thought you had to love me
But you did not
Yes a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
It can even turn monsters into angels from above
You forged my love like a weapon
And turned it against me like a knife
You broke my last heartstring
But you opened up my eyes
So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
That was not love in your eyes
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind searching
What´s been missing in my life
Growing up is not the absence of dreaming
It's being able to understand the difference between
The ones you can hold and the ones that you've been sold
Dreaming is a good thing cause it brings new things to life
But pretending is an ending that perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are seeing for what you've been told
Truth is stranger than fiction
This is my chance to get it right
Life is much better without all of those pretty lies
So Goodbye Alice in Wonderland
You can keep your yellow brick road
Cause there is a difference between dreaming and pretending
This are not tears in my eyes
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
I found what's missing in my life
I'm on a flight leaving L.A.
Trying to think about my life
My youth scattered along the highway
Hotel rooms and headlines
I've made a living with a song
Just a guitar as my companion
Wanting desperately to belong
Fame is filled with spoiled children
They grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality
So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind wanting
What´s been missing in my life
I'm embarassed to say the rest is a rock and roll cliche
I hit the bottom when I reached the top
I never knew it was you who was breaking my heart
I thought you had to love me
But you did not
Yes a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
It can even turn monsters into angels from above
You forged my love like a weapon
And turned it against me like a knife
You broke my last heartstring
But you opened up my eyes
So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
That was not love in your eyes
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind searching
What´s been missing in my life
Growing up is not the absence of dreaming
It's being able to understand the difference between
The ones you can hold and the ones that you've been sold
Dreaming is a good thing cause it brings new things to life
But pretending is an ending that perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are seeing for what you've been told
Truth is stranger than fiction
This is my chance to get it right
Life is much better without all of those pretty lies
So Goodbye Alice in Wonderland
You can keep your yellow brick road
Cause there is a difference between dreaming and pretending
This are not tears in my eyes
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
I found what's missing in my life
Monday, January 5, 2009
Quote addiction
I'm a quote addicted and I just decided to put some quotes in here, and since this blog is about the changes in me and my life in general, I'm focus on quotes that represent that, thisng that I didn't believe and now I do, things I didn't know and now I know or simply the change in my heart itself.
"Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command." - Allan Watts
"One's first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love." - Elizabeth Aston
"When love is in excess it brings a man no honor nor worthiness." - Euripides
"Just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to be involved with them. Love is not a bandage to cover wounds." - Hugh Elliott,
"I cannot think well of a man who sports with any woman's feelings." - Jane Austen
"Is love supposed to last throughout all time, or is it like trains changing at random stops. If I loved her, how could I leave her? If I felt that way then, how come I don't feel anything now?" - Jeff Melvoin
"To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt." - Madonna
"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all." - Michael Masser and Linda Creed
"Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free." - Bible
"I would never die for my beliefs because I might be wrong." - Bertrand Russell
"I would rather have a mind opened by wonder than one closed by belief." - Gerry Spence
"They were so strong in their beliefs that there came a time when it hardly mattered what exactly those beliefs were; they all fused into a single stubbornness." - Louise Erdrich
"It hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be." - Randy K. Milholland,
"Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me." - Carol Burnett
"We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves." - Lynn Hall
"Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking but a full-on metamorphosis." - Martha Beck
"There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered." - Nelson Mandela
"I've arrived at this outermost edge of my life by my own actions. Where I am is thoroughly unacceptable. Therefore, I must stop doing what I've been doing." - Alice Koller,
"To know what you prefer instead of humbly saying Amen to what the world tells you you ought to prefer, is to have kept your soul alive." - Robert Louis Stevenson
"I'm an idealist. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on my way." - Carl Sandburg
"One thing is clear to me. You can't know everything you'd like to know. You can't do everything you'd like to do. You can't read everything you'd like to read. You must hold onto some things and let go of others. Learning to make that choice is one of the big lessons of this life." - Real Live Preacher,
"My life is the story of a man who always wants to carry too much. My spiritual quest is the painful process of learning to let go of things not essential." - Real Live Preacher
"Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command." - Allan Watts
"One's first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love." - Elizabeth Aston
"When love is in excess it brings a man no honor nor worthiness." - Euripides
"Just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to be involved with them. Love is not a bandage to cover wounds." - Hugh Elliott,
"I cannot think well of a man who sports with any woman's feelings." - Jane Austen
"Is love supposed to last throughout all time, or is it like trains changing at random stops. If I loved her, how could I leave her? If I felt that way then, how come I don't feel anything now?" - Jeff Melvoin
"To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt." - Madonna
"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all." - Michael Masser and Linda Creed
"Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free." - Bible
"I would never die for my beliefs because I might be wrong." - Bertrand Russell
"I would rather have a mind opened by wonder than one closed by belief." - Gerry Spence
"They were so strong in their beliefs that there came a time when it hardly mattered what exactly those beliefs were; they all fused into a single stubbornness." - Louise Erdrich
"It hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be." - Randy K. Milholland,
"Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me." - Carol Burnett
"We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves." - Lynn Hall
"Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking but a full-on metamorphosis." - Martha Beck
"There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered." - Nelson Mandela
"I've arrived at this outermost edge of my life by my own actions. Where I am is thoroughly unacceptable. Therefore, I must stop doing what I've been doing." - Alice Koller,
"To know what you prefer instead of humbly saying Amen to what the world tells you you ought to prefer, is to have kept your soul alive." - Robert Louis Stevenson
"I'm an idealist. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on my way." - Carl Sandburg
"One thing is clear to me. You can't know everything you'd like to know. You can't do everything you'd like to do. You can't read everything you'd like to read. You must hold onto some things and let go of others. Learning to make that choice is one of the big lessons of this life." - Real Live Preacher,
"My life is the story of a man who always wants to carry too much. My spiritual quest is the painful process of learning to let go of things not essential." - Real Live Preacher
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